Artist

Life is no art form.

It's messy, surprising, painful even.
I've fallen down more times than I can count, I've cried more tears than I'd care to admit. I've been faced with more fear and pain than any girl deserves.

But I've also laughed with a girl who can only be described as golden, I've loved and been loved by a man who's human, but beyond my wildest dreams. I've denied the impossible only to discover that it is in fact possible.
I can't even describe what I feel in the moments when I realize just how small I am in this world, so much insignificance... But I have a strange impact here as well. I have the joy and pain of loving people, making music, and living life with as much joy as I can. I don't claim to be good at it, in fact I'd probably say I'm bad at it.
But that's why I'm here.
A wise scholar once said,

"The Two Most Important Days In Your Life Are The Day You Were Born And The Day When You Find Out Why."

We are here as people. 

Pain-filled, judgmental, angry, selfish, sensitive, flawed people.

But there is beauty to be discovered... no, strike that, to be created.

It's an abstract art, one with few rules and fewer guidelines. But I think everyone has an "ideal" picture in their head... after pushing past selfishness and anger and pain that lingers inside, there's an image made of perfection, one that's unachievable. 

Most people hide it or they try to forget it because sometimes what's most perfect and good can bring more pain in it's absence than anything in existence ever could.

But what if the unachievable perfect picture is there for a good reason?... As a guideline, and a goal.

Now I'm not one of those "believe and achieve" or "think into existence" people, so don't check out on me just yet.

I'd like to propose that life really is about living now, today... but with it in the perspective of "part of the ideal story". Not in an impatient, angry mindset - but in a longing joy-filled imaginative creating mindset.

We DO get to design our own lives... even if it takes longer, or more pain than first expected. 

But remember last night, when you sat with your love at a hookah cafe eating baklava and smoking champagne?... Remember last week when you bought a piano? Remember the other day when you were told "You make me happy. ...no, good food makes me happy. YOU bring me joy - true joy".

Remember that?...

Life has small delights and joys amidst the hard work, guilt, and sadness. 

Just remember when it's hard: There's tomorrow, there will be laughter, and love, and music, and hope. You can find a new job, you can get a bigger house and a better car. You WILL get your desires... but patience, and joy in the now is required. If you can't seek and create good right now, today, what makes you think you'll find it next week, or year,... or ever? 

Fact: if you "miss your chance" or mess up the plan... you'll be ok. It's just another adventure on the way. 

Make a life today that's worthy of a story ten years from now. You won't regret it. 

Even if you don't "get it" before you die, you will have gotten the best part: The joy, the dreams, the laughter, the faith, the love. 

“‎Do you know that nothing you do in this life will ever matter, unless it is about loving God and loving the people he has made?” -Francis Chan

Screw sadness. I want to be joyful no matter how far I run, how much of a mess I make. 
Find the people who will be by your side no matter what, and never let them go. Live life together.
With your friends, or family, or significant other... the people you Love... Nothing is for anything if you don't have them in your daily life.

Be an artist, a true hipster in a world of fake ones. Paint something new, play a tune the likes of  which has NEVER been heard before. Do something strange... just because it's fun.
Make life an adventure, and every moment one for the record books. You are the artist, so go find your unachievable image... and start the art of living.


This next part's just for my good memories sake: "I love Stinkpot yes I do, I hope Stinkpot loves me to, I'll love Stinkpot all my life, promise not to bring her anymore strife"